The Other Luz

The Other Luz is a fan-fiction I wrote and published on Archive of Our Own back in August 2021, prior to the release of Yesterday's Lie. A series of poems from Creepy Luz's perspective. Within a chapter the poems are in chronological order (unless otherwise specified), but the chapters themselves are not in chronological order. This story was written before Yesterday's Lie, and was based on my predictions of what was going to happen with Creepy Luz.

Sonnet
Por favor mamá, Camilla please pick me

over that girl who ran away from home,

and replaced you with a new family.

Please don't kick me out and leave me alone.

Unlike her I won't cause trouble at school.

I'll make friends that aren't drawn or fictional.

I promise to fit in and follow rules,

and never get sent to the principle.

Unlike her, I'll never make you ashamed.

Unlike her, I don't have ADHD

Unlike her, I'll be perfectly behaved.

Unlike her, I won't hide in fantasy.

Camilla, please pick me instead of her.

And I will be the daughter you deserve.

Ballad
You're other Luz, she ran away

Off to another world.

Instead going to summer camp,

like a good little girl.

You're other Luz, left you behind

to go become a witch.

Please pardon my language but she,

was just a selfish bitch.

Don't worry bout you're other Luz,

she got her fantasy.

She got what she always wanted.

Escaped reality.

You're other Luz was having fun.

Out on the Boiling Isles.

I stayed and kept you company,

and worked to make you smile.

You're other Luz, abandoned you

Lied to you callously.

You're other Luz, she replaced you

with a new family.

You're other Luz, she replaced you

with a cool witch mother.

It's only justice, that you swap

one Luz for another.

Seven Tankas
Today I'll meet her.

The woman who will be mom.

I still feel guilty.

But this is the only way.

I won't get a better chance.

Today I go home,

and finally meet my mom.

The camp was easy.

But now I am so nervous.

How will I fool her mother?

This won't be easy.

She knows everything bout Luz.

I'll have to be smart.

Find out everything I can,

about the girl I'll replace.

If she finds me out,

Camilla will kick me out,

or try to kill me.

Even if I can escape,

Then I'll be alone again

I need to fool her.

She needs to believe I'm Luz.

The only way that

someone could ever love me,

is if I'm somebody else.

Now I have a chance,

to make a good impression,

to be accepted.

I can start over from scratch.

I will not disappoint her.

I will prove I deserve love.

Cinquain Chain
Now I'm

riding the bus

home to my new mother.

I'll meet Camilla Noceda.

My mom.

If I'm

being honest,

I'm simply terrified.

How I will deceive her mother.

Calm down,

there's no magic,

here in the human realm.

She has no reason to suspect,

I'm not

her Luz.

I look like Luz

in every single way.

Still, it's best not to take chances.

I'll be

just fine.

Lucky for me

Camp Reality Check

was all about changing people.

I'll just tell her that the camp worked.

"Because

of camp

I'm better now".

That'll give me some leeway.

But I can't lean on that excuse

too much.

I still

need to study

the girl I'm replacing.

So her mom won't suspect a thing.

I won't

give her

a reason to

suspect anything's off.

I will become a better Luz

than Luz.

Prose
Right now I’m riding the bus

to my new mother and home.

Right now I’m terrified

of what if I mess this up.

Calm down.

I'm already doing better than I expected.

I never thought I’d get this far.

At camp I went to sleep every night, afraid the other Luz

might grow a conscious and tell her mom the truth.

Luckily for me she never did.

Instead the other Luz stopped texting altogether.

What a selfish and inconsiderate bitch.

I hate myself.

I hate myself for rooting for someone else to be a bad person.

I hate myself for benefiting from that persons treachery.

I hate myself for lying to somebody I want to love me.

Right now I’m terrified.

Calm down.

I wipe tears out of my eyes.

Just keep calm and carry on.

Camilla Noceda won’t want to see me scared.

I need to have a smile on my face when I see her.

Keep Calm and Carry On.